under stars
that feel as far as
real does..
at the moment.
at any moment..
kidnap me.
any chance presented
& in moments prior.
spent alone
in
zone.
far from progress.
stasis,
stationed next to
hope & regret.
on either side...
devoid devoid
no contact.
avoid avoid
make it natural.
make sure it's natural;
your motive, your action.
control control
keep, protect, contest.
contrast contrast
run
faster
faster.
catch up to free
past pain, mistakes
thru anxiety, congestion
to clearing..
breathe clearly...
from hurt to wiser,
learn to save time,
bring reimbursement I find in word searches, then
change perception, thus effects of present-to-past tense progression..
splurge surplus all on figurin out how to detect worth,
spell out purpose, hear myself
& i find that via tryin that,
tryin this...
travel backward,
marvel at acronyms,
sunrise..
initials..
early afternoon..
abbreviations,
pickin fork thru dinner
initial acts of de-liberation,
shortened versions of life events..
compact past,
a purse-full.
strapped to shoulder.
carry on,
during flights back to...
under
umbras
of
bundles
of
stars,
canopies of leaves &
branches that
shatter-scatter sky image
held indirect
as a gleam in eyes
as conscious lay in
fabricated gardens
watching memories, &
desires in dream form
from across highway covered by
blue-white,
yellow,
& orange lights
sound of...
why only patterns?
only focusif it matches.
compare compare compare.
why is coincidence exaggerated.
fate, fate, fate, i hate the word.
& i hate the show.
karma, too..
been hated, been a hater.
flesh, inanimate, or metaphys',
only fuck with my shit.
metafish, swim thru saltiest...
12 years later,
nothing major
different.
pain and fear missing
that
i didn't
even know
was there.
but also..
missing very same memories
and people
that elicit flaws...
Melodies pouring from her tuneless
Heart, on key with keener thoughts,
Dropping down despite her mood.
Disembarked from the Earthly World
In his own composed, built from loss
Feelings shielded, locked, he wields to hurt.
Stuck in between, reading lines she
Couldn't see, undefined...
i..
pick up pen,
& sometimes..
don’t write.
hours..
go by..
&
most the time
i end up in dark room, ..
sittin where i started
pickin up pieces
left to
keep from
getting lost,
long ago..
to not feel so alone.
but then pick up phone
and still dont pick up.
slide ignore,
no will to answer...
topic topic topic
pick one
pick one
anyone,
someone..
cherry pickin discussion
carry a steady stream
in hopes it allots fish;
a lotta food for a pisces, but i
don’t even like astrology,
but it’s
somethin to talk about
so i do,..
don’t even like myself,
sometimes
but it's fine;
two...
a break from
truth.
a gap between,
proofs.
i wane to fit.
i hide.
i hate tryin
i hate how weak
i am
i hate myself for tryin..
the same ideas
unfinished craves
to be creative
i hide
i
finally cry
i
finally bleed
i
find a fix
wean heart off of...
in pursuit of happiness.
a path paired with apathy.
a shifting sentience, avid to look,
whether good or bad.
..vivid translations of times...
good ...& bad.
where i live in la la lands,
& by rhymes of seuss..
whether i should or not.
outbursts
in bursts of paint
of pain
gliding...
i see
another way
a shimmer
of light, a glyph
of parity, a gift
at the start of
each day
each notion to
move forward,approach
another chance
that bargains change..
just a pinch
begs for just a piece of courage
to keep heart in check & then speak out..
just a little bit
take...
no body is worth judging yourself over
no body is worth hurting yourself over.
do not observe yourself so closely.
just breathe.
do nothing.
see yourself as better, as happy..
block the world until it’s clear, the lights, the sounds, the energy
and let nothing stop you from reaching
not tears...
untitled tidal force
on
wild ride from origin
a vibrant
pulse..
leading
light years
on course,
toward corners
always forming
on board a
single breath.
plethora furled
pour.
all in order.
all to order
cause, effect;
diffusion of p.o.l.r.
an in the...
i see..
art.
hearts of humans,
sparks in muses
that illuminate darkest parts
of world
getting harder to see.
the darker side of..everything
that i keep from viewin,
to keep on movin,
across a timeline i’m usually out of tune with...
head to toes, waves of vigor, a wash from mind to fingers, to bathe pages, flush emotions
life to digits, to scribe it. a matrix code, beginning to end, from ideas to those alike
a fire captured in words
that
shines to lead souls lost
or not,
before crimson freedom exhausts to embers...
you could follow his footsteps
glass trail along soft sand, down shores of lore
he feels of dawn, smells of mar, a being from depths of ideas, a purpose crisply led by sparks that birth breath, & sends forth word, a message that fiercely spreads, murdering all thoughts indifferent to goals...