malliecroww

Mallie is a complicated girl.She was always meant to believe that girls should be seen and not heard, and when they are seen, they have to be plastered with make up and be pretty. When she was a child, her father molested her, making her think girls were only good for, is to satisfy mens needs. As she grew up, she tried her best to be the most beautiful girl, she would over do her makeup and offer herself so she can be appreciated by others. She became a actress in adult films and do nude photography. Soon, she began to sale herself on the streets. She told her self, if she were to become rich and famous like the Hollywood Models, her life would be great. This only made her life worse. She soon began to do drugs and drink till she became numb, so whenever a man does have their way with her, she can not feel anything. Because of all of substance abuse, she began to get paranoia and schizophrenic. These demons will constantly tell her she is not pretty, she is not good enough and should continue with drugs until she 'falls asleep.'

Now, she is trying to clean herself of the drugs, try to love herself for who she is. Even use her actual skills in art and music to gain income and stability. But, she would always think herself as not 'pretty enough.'

"I am pretty... I am beautiful... Just one more shot,just one more buzz... Why am I not pretty? Why am I not beautiful? All I want is to be appreciated... Girls are meant to be seen and not heard. When I am seen, I must look pleasant... Am I pretty enough? am I.. Pretty?..."